Last night we went to dinner with Cahlan's parents at Cafe Rio. It was delicious but so loud and since were were trying to talk we were practically yelling at each other so we decided to go to a park so the kids could play and we could talk.
We made our way to this school playground just up the road and we ended up playing as well. I realized a few things about myself as I reflected on the fun we had. First, I love swings and slides. Second, I realized that I keep myself too busy sometimes to enjoy things like playing at the park. It's kind of funny because I actually take my kids to the park quite often but it's more out of some parental obligation that I feel the need to do so.
Cahlan and I can sometimes get a little competitive when it comes to games, so of course we had a little competition on the swings to see who could launch off of them the farthest. He was better of course but it was a blast. Then we played in the monkey bars and the slides whith our babies and I remembered how much fun I had when I was little.
I watched my two kiddos for a minute and it dawned on me that I used to play with that much vigor and love for slides and swings. Now it seems as though all of the things that I think are fun involve spending money. I also realized that I always try to rush Emmy and Cohen with their playtime, and then sometimes get upset when Emmy's not quite ready to leave. Last night I wanted to stay longer but felt forced to leave since it was already bed time.
Anyways I just hope that in the future I can better understand my children's desire be kids. I hope that I can nurture that innocence and energy that they have and maybe even learn to retrogress a little bit bit sometimes.